I won't ever do wrong by you / Grieving the Holy Spirit

So what does it mean to say that you won't do wrong by me that when you choose someone else to marry while you were with me and telling me that you won't ever marry giving me the illusion that I have no way of continuing in this relationship. So what does it mean you won't do wrong by me when I get to be treated like a door mat and no phone call or text no attention like I am someone that matters to you. So what does it mean that you won't do wrong by me when you explain the love you feel for the person you chose the love you never showed me the time you never gave me the way you never treated me. So what does it mean that you won't do wrong by me that you come and take me to expensive dinner believing that you can ask me to bless your relationship on my birthday, when you didn't even have time for me when you were with me.

So what does it mean that you won't do wrong by me when you call me to discuss your problem so I can maybe be there when you are out if balance or confused. So what does it mean really how did I come to this point where you call me to tell me all the problem you could be having with your love when I am suppose to be your wife.

Then I started thinking how I grieve the holy spirit everyday, How I keep on praying that I love you to Jesus and I keep on deciding other wise every minute. How I keep on doing wrong by the holy spirit by not paying attention every time and decide to love something else other than my God. How I decide to pay attention  marry and love other than holy spirit and come to ask Jesus to help me when I am having a hard time there. Who am I married to Who do I love the most, who am I committed to who do I pay attention to most. How I have been denying my time to Christ when he took the time to die for me, he took the time to come down from heaven to explain and show me how much he loves me. How do I go past a day without committing to you without loving on you with out giving you attention with out having to hurt you before you decide to leave me and marry someone else like all the other guys I ever dated.

No Cindrella Exists

Well there goes another heart break again I can no longer say I am surprised or rejected no more. I am more sure today than ever that I don't know Love or relationship. I must have been in fairland or in my own world when I thought I was loving and when I thought I was in relationship with a man that I love and loves me. The thing is now I am not even sad or bitter, I am more sure than ever that I need to start at the bottom first, Love myself Love my family mostly Love God faithfully if I am even going to say I have loved in my life.

Maybe the thing is when I loved I loved like Cindrella that I will love be loved and be transformed to a fairy princess that the Prince comes and rescues me from everything that has ever been uncomfortable sad and a struggle for me. Wow have I been dreaming too much for way too long why was I unsure and sad and believed that, did I not believe in Love trust and my rescue and Savior Prince is Jesus.

So I have what I have what I am no matter the size is what I got from the blessing God gave me how am I dreaming of a Prince to rescue me to the blessings that only I have and some other people only dream and pray for. I prayed for everything and God gave them to me out of his abundance and when I prayed some more He gives me those too, but the moment it starts to become heavy weight and a little bit of a challenge then I have to turn my back on it and ask God for a Prince to rescue a Pricess and transform her like a Cindrella.

Turns out life is not like that no Prince will ever rescue me not a man I date and end up marrying anyways, he is just not there as a prince to rescue me he is only gone be a man a company for me, he doesn't have all that it takes to be a Prince to save damsel in distress. Only one being have that power thats Jehovah Adonai he is my savior Prince who rescues me everytime. He leads me in places he knows that I will grow in that I will be challenged in that I will be able to increase my potential in loving more giving more.

Jehovah rescues me from myself, gives me strength to love when I am not even loved back, ask for forgiveness when I have done nothing wrong, help when I have nothing to help with. He is a miraculous God when I come to think of it I love when I am not loved because I was loved and saved when I didn't even Love by Jesus. I was forgiven when I didn't forgive my brother and sisters. I am blessed and loved and rescued and there goes my Cindrella story.

Love letter to Jesus Jehovah Adonai

Is not like dating man relationship, I love you differently. You are always there keep me warm when I am cold, you give me strength when I am weak. You give me hope and light in this dark broken world. What a lucky girl am I to have you in my life. What did I do to deserve a love like yours.

Nothing I say or do can ever explain everything that you do for me, the way you treat me and the way you love me I don't have have words, I am speechless and tongue tied. You know exactly what I am like I am not even good and didn't do good by you but you still show how burning fire your love is for me.

Come to think of there is nothing that I have done that I can think of I am not really sure I have anything that I gave so he can give me all this. In my mind I feel like a Cindrella all that mattered is my name and boom the Prince Charming likes me loves me and marries me.

Your promises are never ending and I believe everyone of them I trust you have only the best in store for me. How can you love me like that.

Jesus to me you are amazing you are loving you are everything I have asked for and more, I am more satified with you than anyone else, I love you too.

I am not good on a lot of things but with you I will do whatever it takes to prove to you I love to show you I will be there for you as much as it takes, I am

Economics is Accurate "No Such thing as free meal"

I get it now there is no such thing as free meal, humans will definitely get their money their energy their efforts worth. It is not necessarily bad actually literally every single one of us are normally like that I only know one person who can really just give and never ask to take. Starting from me I actually give so I can take later I maybe be selfish sometimes. And I think my lesson for this life time is this because I keep on getting the same type of test over and over again and I definitely failed it more than two times going to three times.

But the second time is so weird that I didn't even see it coming. Okay I am talking about the guy I dated more than a year and I thought would actually marry me or loved me for real turned out to settle for someone else who is not me. And the weird stuff is that he wasn't sure he wanted to get married when he was with me and that he is telling me he is marrying this girl 4 months after he told me that. He kept on saying he can't talk to his kids and stuff like that well he is now gonna do that and more. He told me that he decided to wait on a lot of things with her and that she agreed that she will be a stay home wife and not work at all. He said he is buying a bigger house because she wants 6 kids. He said she wants to go to church and not the club. He told me that she listens to him and that she works out because he told her. She is not here actually she is coming to US with his mom and dad he already finished the process for her. He told me that his ex wife called and congratulated him on his new marriage. I think he is already married and he asked me to bless him. And All of this is weird I know I didn't want to marry him and that I was hesitant and he was really treating me like I was nothing to him. His character definitely made me walk away I hope he treats this one right.

But here is the thing the first I dated did the same thing and he was more than hurtful he just met her on the phone then as soon as he visited and met her he decided to commit and decided to choose her and completely give in. I know its crazy but both of these men decided to commit right after they dated me so I am definitely the common denominator. Am I that mean and cruel I know there is something that I can't see but that I keep on sabotaging myself.

So what is it how did I get here from shy principled decent girl who can't express herself to this girl that all the guys I actually dated and put effort in never committed to me and in fact were hesitant and next girl they met decided to marry right away. About this one I think he just hang out this long to get back his money worth and I gave it all back now I can't even ask him for a job because he will give me out of guilt and that will never work out. My brother is so smart he wouldn't work with this guy because he realized that he will get his moneys worth whenever he gets it. The other guy was hesitant I think he just backed up maybe because of my character is a bit flaky and that I wasn't exactly like what he thought.

Why believers can't be with Unbelievers

Today I came to realization that darkness and light can't really make it work. I have been dating non Godly man  for a while now from March of 2016 I started talking to him seriously. But before that I was not really interested because he is not christian.But I was also under pressure from my family to get married, I was really just going with the plan I had to get married by 28 and I was only looking for a serious man who will marry me. And then I found this one and it turned out that I am really not Godly either. I didn't give Jehovah Rohi to lead my path to make me lie down in green pasture and lead me beside still water. Instead I lead myself and now I can't even see my self as anything but a failed believer a complacent a non committer a non aggressive a lot of things that is in darkness than there is in light.

Now I see why I can't date a non Godly man, he seems to miss the whole point of being with someone that is not christian. Being a christian is all about persuing God  Jehovah and Jesus together with the person you date and eventually marry, you only have one intention and thats marriage and thats why you date. But the non Godly man just persues selfish agenda he doesn't think even once about God and his input in the relationship what it means to keep the relationship in pure state. And I am not saying I am good too but me being the only one with that Christ vision in my agenda only leads to failure. Lust is great enemy and it can only be won when the two are actually battling it out, other wise me being the only christian  in the relationship trying to persue sexual purity means I will be battling three enemies the unintentional non believer person I am dating, lust itself and in my head believing I am in love with this guy. In that I didn't call Holy Spirit to come help me so I lost the battle and ended up having mini sex of kissing and touching. And I wonder am I ever gone win this battle am I only destined to fail it, keeps on happening and I dont know if I can ask God to forgive me again I will despise myself and I wonder what my fruit will be.

Jehovah Rohi please lead me I now realize I can't date this man who makes it okay for this situation who is unintentional about persuing this with out Gods permission, the only hope is even a christian man if he is not intentional about giving God the priority to actually be the one who leads and gives us this feeling of wanting to have sex to kiss is permissable and a gift from Jehovah I don't want to persue.

I am human I have fleshly desires so does the man but God comes first if we both intentionally wait until its okay to do so. And thats when the strength to stay pure becomes stronger if the man you are dating understands that Christ is the priority in this relationship. The only other enemy left to fight is lust, when in crisis Holy spirit makes the walk easier.

I am gona give up on my plan on my guy and on my desires all of it to Jehovah the God of greatest Kingdom and the only Kingdom I will come and Bow to and say Lord Jesus do with it what you will I am just a servant in this Kingdom only here to bear fruit of this Kingdom It is all in your hand. I am done I have failed.

FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE

So they told us we are not smart enough and we are not gone cut it for this generation, I am interested in hearing what they have to say but I won't believe it and say that is the truth because the actual truth is that I am fearfully and wonderfully made by God so how can I argue and disagree and say that I am not. No body can prove that I am not fearfully and wonderfully made by God. Even though its a worn out and as old as 2000 year old book that's telling me that I decide to follow and believe it.

I am fearfully and wonderfully made I am little lazy and misguided but I try my best to wake up and forgive the people that I wronged, Even though I have been treated with partiality I go holding my head high and believing I am fearfully and wonderfully made and working as much as I can.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made I trust it because the human race is wrong and has been for a while and they can't even come to a solving so many things, the little things that they are able to do that's been allowed to them through Gods grace of accessing their fearfully and wonderfully made brain. And then turn around to deny God doesn't exist, you are fearfully and wonderfully made by God the one who controls the breathe in our lungs right at this moment the flow of our brain to read right in this moment and then we accept the blood flow in our brain that actually brings the message that God doesn't exist because we can't retain or understand or see or feel or touch him.

My heart just longs for you ohh Lord

I keep on making the same or different mistake over and over again Lord just like my last employer claimed I was being sloppy and lazy with my work because I didn't like it. I didn't know I would be as sloppy in my walk with you. I can't seem to break this long enough to keep it going.

Lord but my heart just longs for you, It breaks to pieces when I realized how I failed you, and at times can't even face you. The worst part is when I remember that you are with me in every step of the way in every walk I take wrong bad and work.

Work had been my greatest challenge by far I would like to say I left them better than I found them but I am not sure now. I am not just a work in progress Lord I am disaster work.

I believed my core believes are unshakable so even lust wouldn't fail me. But I realized no core belief I had are as strong and as rocky as you.

Its said that being rock bottom brings more success than does being on top but I just realized while my journey started out riding a bike to get to the last goal you wanted me to reach its moved down to walking on a foot in my own two feet. I am not proud or boastful of myself, I just think maybe the foot won't be so bad. The bike doesn't help when I go through rocky maintain my foot will, the bike isn't good during the night my foot is, the bike isn't convenient as I have to pass the lake my foot is.

Although It may take me longer since my foot will be slower than a bike in land, It has to be your will that I use my foot for now for things bike can't help with maybe its the way you planned it for my heart to actually take full responsibility and commitment to finally come to your throne and worship you.

Its for such a time as these where my dry season ends and I enter a different era. The era of my full heart just depending on you Lord.

Armor of God: Belt of Truth

Armor of God: Belt of Truth: “Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth,” the apostle Paul wrote in Ephesians 6:14. How does truth serve as a defense in the armor of God?

Tonights whisper

Tonight I heard a whisper of my heart from when I was a kid when I really was a kid and I heard a revelation I can't Express explain or handle.

I heard it again today while I was on my knees praying I had always wondered why I am alive why I am the way I am why I see the things go the way I go feel the way I feel, I have always had this keen desire to figure it all out and being a kid I wanted all the answers all at once and now I realize that how so young misguided I was.
 When I talked to my sister about being humble and always having the hunger and desire to learn to experience to break ground not only in achieving of the things of the world but the things of the most High is most important thing in this God given green earth.

What am I trying to say I haven't always known this about my self today I saw it explaining itself to me I haven't always had orthodox learning and grasping of thing from my educational text book to the every bit of correction that my parents or sibling have been able to tell me.

I just simply rejected it if it doesn't seem right with the moment and level of standing or understanding I have on the idea, and it also depends on my feeling toward the person trying to teach me I wonder why if they are coming from a good place or not. I have had great teachers like my brother what ever he says is correct to me like he has always been the only person who can actually get through to me he understood me more than my dad now that I even realize he always seen me like I have potential and capability of things and level and depth of things I still didn't know of. He is my hero granted my dad is definitely number one because if it weren't for him I wouldn't know how amazing my brain can be and how beautiful it can be when used even quarter of it. He definitely had a say and a share in the way I am right now, I have always been curious to find out whats is so fascinating about going to College everyone raves about.


But to come to my point I had always been this way for so many reason and the most important part of me that I love is the fact I always thought that I would figure out the meaning of life like the way its actually supposed to be lived with out leaving and wasting any moment of it. Maybe the screen of watching too much Hollywood with mixture of my aunts who always been happy just knowing God and living in his word also helped, not to mention the most amazing human I have ever known in my life my life teacher my grandma. My mom also had a part as well not to be lost in my train what I am trying to say is my family are more complicated more deep more amazing than I ever thought of, I am a mixture of every single one of them I have a piece of every single one of them, they all have so many different things to offer and one way or the other they offered me a piece of their life and unknowingly I took as much of them as I could I took some from my friends I took a lot from movies I took too much from my real life experience.





I can tell you this maybe people call living in Juba was hell but it wasn't for me I now realize how grateful I am for it. If it wasn't this desire that went deep in me to figure out life and to be accepted that took me through everything I went and come here. You see I get it when they call Juba hell while they compare this or anywhere else it makes sense, Its all about security here I live in comfort there is water hot water water to drink different types of drink so many to choose from life is just amazingly high standard here and I get that makes sense people is suppose to live in harmony in peace in a place where they are cared for and where they can be secured and protected. But If America is all that why from my point of view I had more deeper love, more deeper conversation, more deeper appreciation for life in Juba than I have here, If life is all about being secured being in a perfect clean safe and secure neighborhood why does my heart sour and pity the way I am living now.

I am not so hard to please I am usually the girl with one book one best friend and laughter and call it a day. I get that being in the US is for a reason and a season just like everything in my life the personality that I have doesn't deal with comfort so well. Don't get me wrong its good its amazing the opportunity here is endless and it can make any humble normal human greedy to a point for me my greed is towards finding out my purpose for living. Working 9 to 5 for now is not really the last destination or purpose I am here for I know I will grow I will learn more I will be achieving a lot too.

But the whisper asked what I am about to do or did do come to a result or a purpose now my walk is with the Lord God almighty and I think this time its the right direction and the right path. From Eritrea to Addis Abeba to Juba to Uganda to Kenya to United States I have seen a lot in a lot of geographical location and I don't think I am done, now its not about changing location now. Its about the purpose of why I am in this path right now and what is the end purpose its taking me to accomplish.

From the looks of it this can't be just about me it has mostly always been about my family and my role in it but now I know it about me and God and my role in his purpose for my life, my heart irks and whimpers I know I am in the most exciting and thrilling time of my life and purpose of my life.
Now my teacher is lord God almighty and he worked a miracle in me he took out all the bad seed that were growing in me and sow all the good seeds from his heart his love and his principle, now its about me and God and how he is leading and taking me to the purpose and direction of where I am suppose to be so he has always been the one leading me in the midst of all my guidance and direction he has always been the one to come overrule and redirect my path when I seemed to be lost.
He is the only reason I am relocated here now,  for a purpose for growth for his own will and now I will humbly learn from his book humbly learn from his correction.

Lecrae - Freedom ft. N'Dambi (@Lecrae @ReachRecords)

FREEDOM  IN DIFFERENT TERMS 

What is freedom and what is the opposite of freedom. I have always been able to see freedom as a mental depth and view thing, I have always been stricken by it. When I was a kid I thought getting out of the house to play was freedom my mom not saying anything, when I grew up I thought staying up to late night to watch movies was freedom ( It just made me happy), then I went to High School I just wanted my dad to give me money so I can go out and hang out as much as I want to with my friends, then I went to College freedom become a different definition I wanted to be free from studies I wanted to be free from worries of where I am going after graduation, then after graduation freedom turned to be where the government will appoint me to work to serve and how I can get out of it to make money to do what I want. 

See I have always thought that from watching in the screen for so long that freedom looked like movies where you get a great job in the first world and have my own apartment, my own car, enough money to go on vacation every quarter and have family that value me.

 

Playing games when I was a kid was good but I didn't want to obey my mom when she tells me to come and do something else so that freedom I thought brought disobedience, staying up late at night to watch movies created an addiction to screen up until now it seems like its a strong hold addiction taking my time my energy and joy away, getting money created a feeling that all I could care about more than my family was going out to look nice to feel good to impress someone so that created a self consciousness that gave me bondage on what people think about me, worry for the future created a whole in me that drove me to take a risky step and a risky direction for the so called future of my selfish personality.

All I did all my life was fight the real meaning of freedom the real point of being free and always being in prison of all the rest of the things that resembled like freedom but really isn't. I am facing different type of dilemma now as I am coming to true meaning of freedom. The religious fanatics and legalistic created standard that the freedom that Jesus gave us is not as good as it feels and it looks, I am surprised to hear so many people tell me that they can't believe in God anymore because it makes you legalistic limits you to do things that they still see is good for them. I am out of all the things they feel is freedom and their free right to do with out any consequence or with out any more look alike of freedom. They are comparing Jesus to religion to legalism I am out of all of that and I entered a dimension that gives me freedom with out consequence, bondage and addiction,

Freedom have different meaning everywhere in the world my father always thought that freedom is modern world not bound to culture and old ways, before he thought freedom was being with out war like the free world that we see people doing anything going any where they feel like. At some point for me having a passport was freedom thinking that I can go anywhere I want meant that I was free but that's not the case now that I have a passport. In the times of Martin Luther King we thought being able to be free and being able to vote will solve all the problems a black man had in the USA but that's not the case now after 50 years black man is still having problem.

At this point I have a completely set standard for the sake of freedom I have an absolutely final and real standard of the definition of freedom. I know now that freedom is not a location, freedom is not money, freedom is not family, freedom is not value, freedom is not a mental stability or feeling.

All my life I have thought of freedom in a very wrong way that created disobedience, addiction, bondage to peoples thinking, to never ending worry that took too far away from the definition of the real meaning of freedom the truth of freedom.

Freedom is not even about me anymore I have been shown and proved that freedom is about someone else I never even thought of all my life. Freedom comes from Jesus freedom is only given by the God almighty who took his life his kingdom to die for us and give us his kingdom and freedom.

When my heart rested in Jesus then I realized that I am free from all the things I created and thought were giving me freedom but gave me nothing that ever resembled freedom. Jesus gave me freedom to choose to either be addicted or to joyfully spend time in more creative works, gave me freedom to choose between bondage of people thinking toward me or to joyfully love them and see the best they have in them the soul that Jesus can reside in. There is not enough time in the day for me to spend them indulging in things that doesn't accelerate growth accelerate creativity or accelerate the gifts that God has given me. 

So I say freedom is winning during the times of adversity living like you are free even when are literary in prison freedom knowing you got everything you ever thought of and that you can now live exactly like you should like the dream that God put in to your heart. For me I have always been free if I take myself out of the equation I have always been given direction I was just resisting that took me far away from freedom. I have to go through a lot of ways for me to come to a conclusion I live gladly I live with Joy I live thankful that even though I resisted I am living in freedom. 

My Rebellious Heart / Mind


Here is a definition of trusting whether to follow your heart or your mind, most of us rationalize that the heart is foolish its the mind that's rational and logical. Especially when it comes to the end of something and it is not like how we perceived it to end.

It gets confusing and you wonder how in the world you got misled to think of the end to be that to begin with and the first finger pointing goes to the heart. Rationalize that I am intelligent enough my mind wouldn't make the same type of mistake.

But recently I keep on being led to see and speak on how the heart is the most wisest and most intelligent one in any human being. I keep on going to this word that says I rather hear the heart it's absolute and never wrong.

Now my whole idea of how smart I have to be how logical I should be and how I should see peoples actions and words seems to be completely challenged at the core.

My heart is trustworthy my heart is where my value my potential lies in not actually in my intelligence and my mind. That gives me a small sight to where I want to get to be in a few years if not months, that place where you can't be changed, moved or hurt or even afraid anymore for anything that comes to bring you down to your knees and break you.

The value you have the potential you have is already set is already in your heart is already available for the purpose of this entity called life. But how come the whole time of your life you actually feel worked out over peopled words actions toward you, how come you set standards for so many of them and put them in a box of how much of your self you are gone invest when it comes to them.


That actually sounds unnatural to the heart but the logical mind its really the perfect remedy or consequence of how anything works in this life. So I came to the conclusion that either one is being rebellious to its nature, I can't seem to be sure for a while but I now know that its my heart that had been rebellious all these time.

My heart being rebellious means that it can be wrong then it can't possibly be the heart because the heart is never wrong so my last understanding came to the realization my mind is the rebellious one its natural self is rebellious nature.

It seems to think that treating everything that it faces deserves the same to every action there is equal and opposite reaction. The word here is equal and opposite, the understanding is wrong. Equal and opposite to every horrible things that seem to come and bother you is what?

Now the answer is pretty simple for the heart and the right answer comes direct from the heart. But the mind is so rational intelligent and logical that it comes with answer that is so wrong and gives you more heartache not mind aches. But if the answer came from the mind why the heartache but not the mind ache.

The answer seems to be here the heart is never wrong so whenever the mind takes the hand in the answer of the place of the heart the heart gets the heat and hurts but doesn't over take the mind. The heart aches because the equal reaction is unnatural to the heart and not to mention its wrong the battle inside is real it takes over the heart standard and it shocks its core every time.

Ok all this mumbling to say that Jesus lord is in our heart but the mind is so rebellious that it first come to lead your actions and words to the wrong side and gives the heart all types of aches, Jesus inside you aches you know how much easy it would be if the mind already knew that its value and potential is in Jesus in the heart so the lead or the equal and opposite reaction should come from the heart and Jesus rather than the logical world view mind. There won't be any problem and the won't be any heart aches. No grain of salt or water is needed to gulp this, swallow it and accept it Jesus is the only one you can get your value from. Jesus is the only one with the right answer and direction and leadership to your life. It doesn't take intelligence or mind success for your to see that the right answer comes from Jesus and God.
 

THE STRANGE ORDEAL OR TRADITION OF WEDDING AND COVENANT



I just a little bit of a shot out from a friend asking me to be a bridesmaid and I was not really jumping for joy, I am not that good being in the center of attention and things like that, I was thinking of kindly refusing when my sister reminded me how she was rejected from her friends at her wedding day and that she never forgot it.

Ok I get it in my sisters wedding everything that could go wrong did go wrong and more but it still turned out to be great day or maybe the attitude of my sister was really amazing I still wonder how she went through all of that with out winning complaining and yelling.

The fact is the day before the wedding a lot of things went wrong I don't even remember most of it but my sister reminded me today of one, one of her friends came to see if we needed any help she was very supportive gone straight to work and all
and then another one came and she went to the same bed room the other friend went to put her jacket and left her purse there, then when its about time for my sister to go get her hair done.


At the same time the other friend decided to leave with her and then she went to the bedroom to bring her purse and then soon as she checked her purse she started screaming, apparently she had some couple thousand dollars in cash in her purse and by then they were gone, and the moment the other lady came to the room she was the first suspect.

The bride was in another room she didn't know but they started a huge fight in the middle of the day.
I can promise the girl that's accused of stealing was the last person to ever steal or cheat she is a straight forward christian she makes all of us look bad.

We suspected that the girl who was screaming she kept on saying lets go to the police to get it all figured out my sister was defending her friend because she knew her a longer time than the accuser so she definitely took her side and told her she is really not that kinda of person, but at the moment everything was heated up that the lady just went crazy started talking a lot.

So it't not crazy but we assumed that the money was stolen prior to her coming to the house she was at a hair parlor and you know a lot of people come to a hair parlor we still do not even have a clue to this day who stole the money.

so while doing all that the time for the beauty parlor to get the brides hair done gets closed and they tell her that they are leaving for the day, OK  that the big no no brides hair was not done and she doesn't even have potential stylist and its nearing 11:00 PM.

Lord if that was me I would have been absolutely ballistic and i would have said something that would hurt peoples feeling. My sister was calm and gracious and called some other friends of her to find her a stylist open by that time, mind you by this time the situation is not even resolved its just calmed because everyone told them to give this thing a day after the wedding to go to the police and resolve the issue.

Then a stylist was found and he was about that good not even enough, he whipped something up to my sisters hair and all the bridesmaid. By the time they were done it was 2:00 AM. Everyone was asleep and resting except the bride and her maids. By the time they came I was all ready to feed them and get things ready, they won't be able to sleep so they all gotta get dressed because the groom was coming at 4:00 AM to go to church.

OK I know its crazy but the groom is super efficient he didn't want to miss any minute of the plan they had out with everything going wrong.  But when the groom came and the covenant was done with everything happening, It was amazing it was a happy day.

The fact is covenant with God is like that too right before the hour of the grooms arrival everything will go wrong, the bride the church will have accuser accusation and friends that are accused for her behalf, I am convinced that right before the arrival of the groom of our lord JESUS our life will be in a complete chaos.

But at that moment it just makes me think how we will be reacting how we will be embracing all the tests and tribulation.