STRANGELY HOPEFULL

FREEDOM  IN DIFFERENT TERMS 

What is freedom and what is the opposite of freedom. I have always been able to see freedom as a mental depth and view thing, I have always been stricken by it. When I was a kid I thought getting out of the house to play was freedom my mom not saying anything, when I grew up I thought staying up to late night to watch movies was freedom ( It just made me happy), then I went to High School I just wanted my dad to give me money so I can go out and hang out as much as I want to with my friends, then I went to College freedom become a different definition I wanted to be free from studies I wanted to be free from worries of where I am going after graduation, then after graduation freedom turned to be where the government will appoint me to work to serve and how I can get out of it to make money to do what I want. 

See I have always thought that from watching in the screen for so long that freedom looked like movies where you get a great job in the first world and have my own apartment, my own car, enough money to go on vacation every quarter and have family that value me.

 

Playing games when I was a kid was good but I didn't want to obey my mom when she tells me to come and do something else so that freedom I thought brought disobedience, staying up late at night to watch movies created an addiction to screen up until now it seems like its a strong hold addiction taking my time my energy and joy away, getting money created a feeling that all I could care about more than my family was going out to look nice to feel good to impress someone so that created a self consciousness that gave me bondage on what people think about me, worry for the future created a whole in me that drove me to take a risky step and a risky direction for the so called future of my selfish personality.

All I did all my life was fight the real meaning of freedom the real point of being free and always being in prison of all the rest of the things that resembled like freedom but really isn't. I am facing different type of dilemma now as I am coming to true meaning of freedom. The religious fanatics and legalistic created standard that the freedom that Jesus gave us is not as good as it feels and it looks, I am surprised to hear so many people tell me that they can't believe in God anymore because it makes you legalistic limits you to do things that they still see is good for them. I am out of all the things they feel is freedom and their free right to do with out any consequence or with out any more look alike of freedom. They are comparing Jesus to religion to legalism I am out of all of that and I entered a dimension that gives me freedom with out consequence, bondage and addiction,

Freedom have different meaning everywhere in the world my father always thought that freedom is modern world not bound to culture and old ways, before he thought freedom was being with out war like the free world that we see people doing anything going any where they feel like. At some point for me having a passport was freedom thinking that I can go anywhere I want meant that I was free but that's not the case now that I have a passport. In the times of Martin Luther King we thought being able to be free and being able to vote will solve all the problems a black man had in the USA but that's not the case now after 50 years black man is still having problem.

At this point I have a completely set standard for the sake of freedom I have an absolutely final and real standard of the definition of freedom. I know now that freedom is not a location, freedom is not money, freedom is not family, freedom is not value, freedom is not a mental stability or feeling.

All my life I have thought of freedom in a very wrong way that created disobedience, addiction, bondage to peoples thinking, to never ending worry that took too far away from the definition of the real meaning of freedom the truth of freedom.

Freedom is not even about me anymore I have been shown and proved that freedom is about someone else I never even thought of all my life. Freedom comes from Jesus freedom is only given by the God almighty who took his life his kingdom to die for us and give us his kingdom and freedom.

When my heart rested in Jesus then I realized that I am free from all the things I created and thought were giving me freedom but gave me nothing that ever resembled freedom. Jesus gave me freedom to choose to either be addicted or to joyfully spend time in more creative works, gave me freedom to choose between bondage of people thinking toward me or to joyfully love them and see the best they have in them the soul that Jesus can reside in. There is not enough time in the day for me to spend them indulging in things that doesn't accelerate growth accelerate creativity or accelerate the gifts that God has given me. 

So I say freedom is winning during the times of adversity living like you are free even when are literary in prison freedom knowing you got everything you ever thought of and that you can now live exactly like you should like the dream that God put in to your heart. For me I have always been free if I take myself out of the equation I have always been given direction I was just resisting that took me far away from freedom. I have to go through a lot of ways for me to come to a conclusion I live gladly I live with Joy I live thankful that even though I resisted I am living in freedom.