My Rebellious Heart / Mind


Here is a definition of trusting whether to follow your heart or your mind, most of us rationalize that the heart is foolish its the mind that's rational and logical. Especially when it comes to the end of something and it is not like how we perceived it to end.

It gets confusing and you wonder how in the world you got misled to think of the end to be that to begin with and the first finger pointing goes to the heart. Rationalize that I am intelligent enough my mind wouldn't make the same type of mistake.

But recently I keep on being led to see and speak on how the heart is the most wisest and most intelligent one in any human being. I keep on going to this word that says I rather hear the heart it's absolute and never wrong.

Now my whole idea of how smart I have to be how logical I should be and how I should see peoples actions and words seems to be completely challenged at the core.

My heart is trustworthy my heart is where my value my potential lies in not actually in my intelligence and my mind. That gives me a small sight to where I want to get to be in a few years if not months, that place where you can't be changed, moved or hurt or even afraid anymore for anything that comes to bring you down to your knees and break you.

The value you have the potential you have is already set is already in your heart is already available for the purpose of this entity called life. But how come the whole time of your life you actually feel worked out over peopled words actions toward you, how come you set standards for so many of them and put them in a box of how much of your self you are gone invest when it comes to them.


That actually sounds unnatural to the heart but the logical mind its really the perfect remedy or consequence of how anything works in this life. So I came to the conclusion that either one is being rebellious to its nature, I can't seem to be sure for a while but I now know that its my heart that had been rebellious all these time.

My heart being rebellious means that it can be wrong then it can't possibly be the heart because the heart is never wrong so my last understanding came to the realization my mind is the rebellious one its natural self is rebellious nature.

It seems to think that treating everything that it faces deserves the same to every action there is equal and opposite reaction. The word here is equal and opposite, the understanding is wrong. Equal and opposite to every horrible things that seem to come and bother you is what?

Now the answer is pretty simple for the heart and the right answer comes direct from the heart. But the mind is so rational intelligent and logical that it comes with answer that is so wrong and gives you more heartache not mind aches. But if the answer came from the mind why the heartache but not the mind ache.

The answer seems to be here the heart is never wrong so whenever the mind takes the hand in the answer of the place of the heart the heart gets the heat and hurts but doesn't over take the mind. The heart aches because the equal reaction is unnatural to the heart and not to mention its wrong the battle inside is real it takes over the heart standard and it shocks its core every time.

Ok all this mumbling to say that Jesus lord is in our heart but the mind is so rebellious that it first come to lead your actions and words to the wrong side and gives the heart all types of aches, Jesus inside you aches you know how much easy it would be if the mind already knew that its value and potential is in Jesus in the heart so the lead or the equal and opposite reaction should come from the heart and Jesus rather than the logical world view mind. There won't be any problem and the won't be any heart aches. No grain of salt or water is needed to gulp this, swallow it and accept it Jesus is the only one you can get your value from. Jesus is the only one with the right answer and direction and leadership to your life. It doesn't take intelligence or mind success for your to see that the right answer comes from Jesus and God.
 

THE STRANGE ORDEAL OR TRADITION OF WEDDING AND COVENANT



I just a little bit of a shot out from a friend asking me to be a bridesmaid and I was not really jumping for joy, I am not that good being in the center of attention and things like that, I was thinking of kindly refusing when my sister reminded me how she was rejected from her friends at her wedding day and that she never forgot it.

Ok I get it in my sisters wedding everything that could go wrong did go wrong and more but it still turned out to be great day or maybe the attitude of my sister was really amazing I still wonder how she went through all of that with out winning complaining and yelling.

The fact is the day before the wedding a lot of things went wrong I don't even remember most of it but my sister reminded me today of one, one of her friends came to see if we needed any help she was very supportive gone straight to work and all
and then another one came and she went to the same bed room the other friend went to put her jacket and left her purse there, then when its about time for my sister to go get her hair done.


At the same time the other friend decided to leave with her and then she went to the bedroom to bring her purse and then soon as she checked her purse she started screaming, apparently she had some couple thousand dollars in cash in her purse and by then they were gone, and the moment the other lady came to the room she was the first suspect.

The bride was in another room she didn't know but they started a huge fight in the middle of the day.
I can promise the girl that's accused of stealing was the last person to ever steal or cheat she is a straight forward christian she makes all of us look bad.

We suspected that the girl who was screaming she kept on saying lets go to the police to get it all figured out my sister was defending her friend because she knew her a longer time than the accuser so she definitely took her side and told her she is really not that kinda of person, but at the moment everything was heated up that the lady just went crazy started talking a lot.

So it't not crazy but we assumed that the money was stolen prior to her coming to the house she was at a hair parlor and you know a lot of people come to a hair parlor we still do not even have a clue to this day who stole the money.

so while doing all that the time for the beauty parlor to get the brides hair done gets closed and they tell her that they are leaving for the day, OK  that the big no no brides hair was not done and she doesn't even have potential stylist and its nearing 11:00 PM.

Lord if that was me I would have been absolutely ballistic and i would have said something that would hurt peoples feeling. My sister was calm and gracious and called some other friends of her to find her a stylist open by that time, mind you by this time the situation is not even resolved its just calmed because everyone told them to give this thing a day after the wedding to go to the police and resolve the issue.

Then a stylist was found and he was about that good not even enough, he whipped something up to my sisters hair and all the bridesmaid. By the time they were done it was 2:00 AM. Everyone was asleep and resting except the bride and her maids. By the time they came I was all ready to feed them and get things ready, they won't be able to sleep so they all gotta get dressed because the groom was coming at 4:00 AM to go to church.

OK I know its crazy but the groom is super efficient he didn't want to miss any minute of the plan they had out with everything going wrong.  But when the groom came and the covenant was done with everything happening, It was amazing it was a happy day.

The fact is covenant with God is like that too right before the hour of the grooms arrival everything will go wrong, the bride the church will have accuser accusation and friends that are accused for her behalf, I am convinced that right before the arrival of the groom of our lord JESUS our life will be in a complete chaos.

But at that moment it just makes me think how we will be reacting how we will be embracing all the tests and tribulation.