Well there goes another heart break again I can no longer say I am surprised or rejected no more. I am more sure today than ever that I don't know Love or relationship. I must have been in fairland or in my own world when I thought I was loving and when I thought I was in relationship with a man that I love and loves me. The thing is now I am not even sad or bitter, I am more sure than ever that I need to start at the bottom first, Love myself Love my family mostly Love God faithfully if I am even going to say I have loved in my life.
Maybe the thing is when I loved I loved like Cindrella that I will love be loved and be transformed to a fairy princess that the Prince comes and rescues me from everything that has ever been uncomfortable sad and a struggle for me. Wow have I been dreaming too much for way too long why was I unsure and sad and believed that, did I not believe in Love trust and my rescue and Savior Prince is Jesus.
So I have what I have what I am no matter the size is what I got from the blessing God gave me how am I dreaming of a Prince to rescue me to the blessings that only I have and some other people only dream and pray for. I prayed for everything and God gave them to me out of his abundance and when I prayed some more He gives me those too, but the moment it starts to become heavy weight and a little bit of a challenge then I have to turn my back on it and ask God for a Prince to rescue a Pricess and transform her like a Cindrella.
Turns out life is not like that no Prince will ever rescue me not a man I date and end up marrying anyways, he is just not there as a prince to rescue me he is only gone be a man a company for me, he doesn't have all that it takes to be a Prince to save damsel in distress. Only one being have that power thats Jehovah Adonai he is my savior Prince who rescues me everytime. He leads me in places he knows that I will grow in that I will be challenged in that I will be able to increase my potential in loving more giving more.
Jehovah rescues me from myself, gives me strength to love when I am not even loved back, ask for forgiveness when I have done nothing wrong, help when I have nothing to help with. He is a miraculous God when I come to think of it I love when I am not loved because I was loved and saved when I didn't even Love by Jesus. I was forgiven when I didn't forgive my brother and sisters. I am blessed and loved and rescued and there goes my Cindrella story.
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