Its ridiculous to think that people start living when they find out that they are about to die. I mean really living like waking up in the morning smiling and knowing that today you can make something you wanted happen. It only takes like terminal disease or car accident or something that hits you suddenly for you to realize that life is very short, its gone in a blink of an eye and so many things you thought you were gone do for tomorrow becomes never again.
Anyone can find out he is dying today do you think that his first thought is that he didn't have enough money in his bank account for him to be buried with. You can work all your life for money to accumulate enough for you to rest and to actually do all the things you really enjoy because you would be free by then. But too late you find out that life is gone by and now you are tired sick old and in a hospital waiting to die. Through out your bucket list and prepare to die. And the family you leave behind like me never really got the sense that my father actually left earth he is not here anymore. There is still a part of me that feels like some miracle would keep him because I don't believe I have cried enough for him and that I know for sure that I didn't get that feeling that he is really gone from here yet. I still feel his presence here I don't mean to be weird but its possible that there are super natural forces that I can't control and see. Its not only a feeling its also that when i am around my family who are the same witness to him being present in this world and his works to still exist through me because I still exist I still have his memory and his strength.
I met so many people but I never met anyone who talked the way he did, who thought of things the way did, who existed in this world the way he did.
He existed in this world he walked this place he was here he felt love he felt disapointed, sad, happy, loved, respected. He existed in this world with head held up high always ready to learn and improve
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